Monday, April 21, 2008

in a world where God plans and good books burn

I had a million great thoughts today. I can't think of any of them now that I am nearly falling asleep....I hate that.

I swear, God is not my God if predestination is real.
Homosexuality and the Bible in the same sentence confuses me to no end.

There are so many things that the world is dealing with that I easily forget about because I never experience them. I was reminded by a dear friend that I don't have these conversations often enough. I could live on them like frogs live on lily pads.

Elsewhere in my thoughts, ever-present.....
There is still only one person whose mystery, still, more than anyone else's, intrigues me-does that mean I am crazy or need to focus on God more or that you are waiting too? I am no longer easily disillusioned because of you, but your illusion is like a good book that I can't reach and I have no idea how many pages I have until the end. It's sitting way too close to the fire...the flames are creeping in toward the pages so that I feel like I may never get to finish the story. It makes me sick to my stomach.

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